Is Blogging Still A "Thing?"

I suppose I should start with the fact that I completely forgot about this blog until today. I moved across the country to Colorado, and I work in a facility that helps teens fighting addiction and mental health. Ya'll don't even know half of it, but I have a considerable amount of experience with both. However, when I was packing my car with everything I considered to be of value, my diaries and journals didn't make it - who would have guessed? By a random strike of lightening from the universe, I remembered this blog. I grazed over my past posts looking for something I could share to connect with the kids I work with.

Holy fuck was I in for a treat.

I was so witty! I was funny and poetic and let's be honest here, a sad little girl most of the time.  Always looking for validation in the men I wanted to date/be with.

I'm 25 now, and more than just my location has changed. The relationship I have with myself is much more open and honest. I'm still a fuck up, don't get me wrong, but I own it now. I soak myself in my mistakes and lay them out for everyone to see so that I remember not to repeat them. I sun bathe in my addictions and I'll be honest - men are still a damn mystery. I have much more experience now, some I wish I didn't have, but I still hang around too long and take responsibility for mistakes I didn't make. 

The difference is that know I know I'm hot as fuck, I don't need a man - I just want one, and I am a completely self-sufficient woman who doesn't need anything more than companionship. And need is stretching it.

There's a lot to catch up on, if I even decide I want to (I do), and now isn't exactly the time, but c'est la vie bitches. I'm back. It's October, spooky season, and my life is still full of wild dumb mistakes. Like two weeks ago when I got drunk and simultaneously bought a Machine Gun Kelly ticket and literally invited a stranger to come visit me in CO. I woke up short $80 and with a Facebook message of pictures of this guy's plane ticket and a hotel reservation for a week in November. The panic attack I had in Safeway later that day was definitely related.