Friday, August 10, 2012

The Beginners Guide to Recognizing Destructive Behavior

I promised myself that if you didn't respond after ten (giving you a full 11 hours to come up with a definite answer & even more just to think about it) that I was done.  That's it, send the ship, burn the letter, call the president, the end.
You responded at 10:04

Now do I stick to my promise, or do I give in to four damn minutes.
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I gave in.

Typical.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Calling All Cops

* Put your iTunes/Winamp/WMP on shuffle.
* Use the song title as the answer to the question.

1. How does the world see me? Echo Park by Ximena Sariana

2. Will I have a happy life? Rich Kids by New Medicine 

3. What do my friends really think of me? Smack Down by Thousand Foot Krutch
(thanks guys, lol).

4. Do people secretly lust after me? Love You Much Better by The Hush Sound
(I'll take that as a YES!)

5. How can I make myself happy? Cry When You Get Older by Robyn

6. What should I do with my life? Catch Me If You Can by Gym Class Heroes
(fuck you, ipod, you'll never make me run.  Especially as a profession!)

7. Will I ever have children? Birthday Cake by Rihanna

8. What is some good advice for me? I Want it That Way by Backstreet Boys
(I think the best advice is probably just to take these guys off my playlist...)

9. How will I be remembered? Feelings Show by Colbie Caillat

10. What is my signature dancing song? Fire by Ingrid Michaelson 

11. What do I think my current theme song is? Lonely Won't Come Around by Crystal Bowersox
(Because it's already moved in, brought it's shit & made itself comfortable.)

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is? Strong Enough by Kina Grannis

13. What song will play at my funeral? Don't Rain On My Parade by Glee Cast

14. What type of men do I like? Toxic by Britney Spears

15. What is my day tomorrow going to be like? My Vietnam by Pink
(I don't know how to take that.  Fight the war or stay in my room all day?)

16. Will I ever have love again? Handle Me by Robyn
(well then.)

17. What type of sex life do I have? Love Song by Meg & Dia

18. What song would be the title of my own porno movie? Journal of Ardency by Class Actress

19. How does the person I like feel about me? Don't Want You Back (Fuck It) by Eamon
(No need to be rude about it, ipod, I think I already had a clue thankyouverymuch.)

20. What will I title this post? Calling All Cops by Motion City Soundtrack


So maybe my ipod could tell you something I couldn't today.  I just remembered doing these all the time on the old beloved Myspace and decided to do a throwback ;)  I've been pretty busy lately by getting ready for school and spending all the time I can with friends and family.  I've been in a weird mood the past few days where anything can just push me off the edge.  I just keep trying to surround myself with people who love me unconditionally and trying to forget those who don't.  
I read something the other day that said 90% of the time you forgive someone simple because you want to keep them in your life.  I felt it was kind of obvious but it hit a sore spot.  I just need to stop caring about people who don't care about me.  It's harder than it sounds.

Here's a little playlist of the songs I could find, it doesn't have all my favorites, but it's all little something :)
http://pl.st/p/23564429579

The big splash into the river...

I guess you have to at least admire my friend for having the guts to try this. (remember, she wasn't harmed)