Almost two weeks ago I went to visit the doctor. I hadn't been in a while and I needed to set up with a steady doctor who wasn't a pediatrician, so I thought I'd go ahead with it while I was on Christmas break. Physically I'm totally fine, I hardly ever get sick, and I don't think I have any life threatening illnesses.
However, I'm slightly OCD and anxious. I've had a few panic attacks, heart palpitations and add that into my new mood swings, and constant crying...I knew something was up. I just hate admitting things like that. I always want to be in complete control of myself, I don't want any help, much less any medication.
They had me fill out a form about my "feelings." Like, "I feel this often," or, "I never feel this" and while looking at it I busted into tears - a complete fit really. It was totally fucking embarrassing.
So you're looking at a newly diagnosed depressed young woman. It's awesome. However, I've been on medicine and I feel so much better. I've only cried twice! And once was because of a movie! haha. We'll see how things go when school starts back up and I pile more things onto my plate. With 18 credit hours, a part time job, and a boyfriend I just hope I can juggle as well as become a magician. Turning chainsaws into doves can't be that hard, right? Maybe I'll up my dose...
(kidding, haha)
Besides that I have SO MUCH to catch up on. I signed for an apartment recently, my family gave my boyfriend 600 dollars, my new years resolutions, my (very decent if I must say) grades, and my recent Christmas adventures in North Carolina. I'll probably have new years stuff too. Man, I'm behind.
I'll at least post a few pictures on here to I don't feel so lame, haha.
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